today has mostly been spent crying. Again.
I cried because my sister seemed snappy, I cried because G didn’t give me a hug (I hadn’t asked for one, or approached for one… Yup I’m mental), I cried because of back pain. I cried because I had been to the toilet 6 times in less than 15 minutes. I cried because I ache. I cried because I cried…. These hormones are knocking me for six.
I feel like I’ve been hit by a bus. My body seems to be constantly testing me.
Period pain. Back ache. Braxton hicks. Contractions? Irregular but painful. More period pain. Back ache subsides. Crushing back pain…. Then I’ve had the ” hold on to baby a bit longer, don’t want him coming out whilst G is on the course”. Gaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!
So then I cried some more.
Can’t win. M thinks it’s hilarious. I just want some normality and to have the house ready so I can bring my baby home to a nice place.
Bloody hormones. They’re wrecking me.