Wanting company

I’ve been craving company, I’ve not been coping on my own.
I had company. I didn’t particularly cope very well in company either. It wasn’t any ordinary company either, it was family. My wonderful, caring, supportive family.
I struggled. I had to concentrate to hard on conversations. I had to act normal.
It was tough.
When will it get easier? When will I stop feeling so bad? Why is it, today seemed a good day, I woke up and felt happy, then I remember. I’m not pregnant anymore. I don’t feel pregnant anymore. I’m empty. Then today became another day or feeling hurt and upset. Another day of me trying to appreciate what I have instead of dreaming about what could have…

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